Better

2014 is almost done. Can you guys actually believe that?
Another year has passed and it's unbelieveable how much S#&t can go down in 365 days, break-ups, make-ups, happy times, not so great times, memories that will last a lifetime, it's truly a blessing to be able to live everyday to the fullest and even though life is this big gigantic mess that we haven't really figured out yet we still can appreciate we are all lucky to have what we do.
 New year is also the time where most empty promises are made in form of new year resolutions so i decided not to make any, and instead i am gonna start a new clean fresh book in which i will carry all that i have learnt in the past to make it a better book. So i guess i lied, i do have one resolution, for this new year to be awesome!
To a better year, and may we all become better along with it, and grow into better looking, better dressed people with even better hearts.

It could be worse...

As a good hopeless romantic that i am, i have read most Nicholas Sparks books but my favorite character ever is of course Noah from The Notebook, but not on that book , as you would expect, on its sequel The Wedding which is the story of Noah and Allie's daughter. Noah's son-in-law constantly asks him for advice because Noah is the king of romance and amazingness(not a word i know) and one thing caught my eye is whenever Noah is asked how he was doing he would reply ' i could be better, but i could be worse too' this coming from a man that had lost the one and only love of his life and lived in an empty house he made for her, is such a positive outlook on life that i decided to adopt it.
 At the end of the day, Sh#& happens! And most of the times is out of our control so we can either let whatever happens bring us down, or we can either rise from it and be better, become better.
 Some sucky things happened in my life lately and believe me they suck really bad! But no matter how bad you feel , there is always someone somewhere that has something worse going on, so lets all be thankful for the good things, and let go of the bad.
Tomorrow is a new day, lets make it a better one.
lots of love,
K

We deserve better

'You deserve better?' - how many of you have heard a friend say this to you before? Well i have, too many times actually so it made me think , do we set ourselves low standards? Or do we always fall for the guy that doesn't care enough about us. I say enough is enough. I want to be with someone that my friends are gonna look at him and say ' you guys are great for each other' or ' you are really lucky' and i want to feel lucky, i am tired of falling for the guy that would make out with another when you're around( in which you technically can't be mad but you are and you can't help how you feel). So i say 'I deserve better' and it doesn't matter how long we have to wait, eventually we will find that appreciates us and values us, because that what we deserve.

Dream Guy

We all had/have 'the list'- a set o criteria in which one must fulfill to be our  'dream guy'.
Most of us grow out of it as we realize the ugly truth that no one is perfect and worse probably no one will ever meet every criteria so we settle for 50%, 75% or even 0%.
 So there is me, first year of university , in a whole new world in this complete new, strange environment. Through a society I got to know so many cool people, there was this really cute guy but nothing i paid too much attention to.
  When i realized i was  fully involved in this society and spending so much time with this guy that was actually very nice and filled more criteria than others. I shall enlighten you:
 - Nice eyes(check)
-  Nice hair (check)
-  Nice smile (check)
-  Strong arms (check)
-  Speaks spanish ( CHECK - this is a particular hard one)
-  Plays guitar ( check- this one just seals the deal really)
-  Good fashion sense (check)
 And these are just the physical criteria which are already hard to fullfil ( don't judge me, if i was gonna describe my dream guy i had to do it to perfection)
 But nothing was to worry , until the day, his birthday more specifically in which he got off his face drunk and started telling all my friends how much he really liked me  and then telling me about it and how he couldn't do or say anything more because he did not want t do it drunk, which i thought was very sweet, so i allowed myself to be excited about this guy that actually sounded quite unreal.
  My excitement didn't last long as he did not recall  the past evening and its happenings.
Long story short things got awkward and complicated , people got involved, when actually was nothing to be involved in. Being the girl that i am, i started thinking about this guy way too much, looking at his pictures too much and actually falling for this amazing and really, genuinely nice guy whom which i have so many things in common, that i never thought i would meet.
So here i am , 3 months after meeting this guy , falling for him , and getting mixed signals ALL THE TIME, i genuinely don't have a clue if he sees me that way or not  so i thought telling you people about it would help me decide what to do, well it didn't. Should i go for it and risk this new found 'friendship' or should i wait and let time dictate what happens?

Ordinary Life.........

I am tired of movies and TV series made about the 'not-so-popular' girl that gets the hot guy. It never happens that way, most of us just hold in our teeny tiny ( huge) crush on our dream guy, whom never quite looks at us the same way.
I was never that kind of girl , i didn't care. Of course I had crushes on guys that were super hot, but deep inside i knew that was all it was. Until the day a guy decided to break through my walls. Someone that made me feel and think that the 'universe' put us together because if it wasn't for my best friend's boyfriend calling her at a specific time in which we weren't supposed to be together but were, we would never have developed an interest in each other, and somehow he knew just the route to my heart. But let me not fool you, life ain't that pretty, it's very  messy actually and sometime even though you think it's meant to be things don't work out that way, and it's okay because no one thinks this at the moment of hurt but some endings are truly just new (better) beginnings.